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About self-esteem and self-centred existence

A wall with the inscription Wand

Our minds are not naturally designed to not think. They demand constant activity, without us being able to do anything about it. Have you ever tried saying to yourself: "Right, now I'm just going to stop thinking for a few minutes! I want some peace and quiet."

And did it work?

In addition, our means of directing our thinking are unfortunately very limited. We have relatively poor tools for thinking clearly without interruptions.

As a result, we constantly and chaotically deal with things and thoughts that we pretend we have consciously conceived. Ultimately, however, our mind simply wants to be occupied. It can hardly bear to be ignored. Thus, many, if not all (or perhaps all?), of the things we want, our desires, the goals we pursue, being in love and the like, follow simple patterns that our minds can hardly comprehend.

Why do we fall in love, why do we have to die?

"Where do we come from? Why are we here? Where are we going?"

These are probably the fundamental questions that drive everyone, even if we don't think about them. This gives rise to fear, dissatisfaction, the desire to form attachments, to engage with others/something else and not with ourselves.

The most difficult task, to the point of futility, is to reflect on ourselves. We only want to and, above all, can only do this to a certain extent, because we don't really understand much at first. Neither ourselves, nor others, nor the other.

So we concern ourselves with things, other people, our drives, ideas, our tendencies.
Completely dependent on our worlds of thoughts and feelings, which we do NOT produce ourselves.

I repeat myself: "Have you ever tried to just turn it off?"
We don't want to understand them.
It could make them superfluous. Question
our EGO.

This would reduce our superego to absurdity, because it is uncontrollable, clinging, strongly biological, chaotic. The same applies to our ego, our direct thoughts, feelings and tendencies. Can these even be separated?

Ultimately, we all need concepts and constructs to suggest a non-existent security to ourselves. These are the opinions that lead to wars. In private life as well as in the world at large.

Everyone has their right.
That is indeed the case.
Because no one has more right than others from multiple perspectives.
That is perhaps why there is no comparative form of "being right".

These (thought) concepts and constructs are actually important in order not to go mad. It's about occupation, distraction and suggested security, however false, uncontrollable, unconscious, moral or reprehensible it may be. This does not explain, relativise or justify anything, as we do have a few tools at our disposal to break through these worlds of thoughts and feelings in order to achieve more peace and uncertainty. Unfortunately, this is a very difficult path that hardly anyone is willing to take or even sees or knows about.

It is even questionable whether it makes any sense at all.

So we prefer to get upset, argue, hate, love, chat nonsense or meaningful things, distract ourselves. We wage wars because we think we are right, we concern ourselves with God, Buddhism, buying shoes, hating our neighbours, because we have nothing to do by nature except get food and a place to sleep.

The more time we have (and we have a lot of it in our society), the more constructs we need to believe we are fulfilled.

We would probably do all of this even if we strove for more peace and equanimity.

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